Story points are bullshit and I just hope it’s not the sole metric you’re judged on, or at least your team don’t see it that way. If you do, definitely try to steal a bunch of easy tickets to even out the playfield.
How many story points can I complete? I don’t know because that’s a hard no for my team, but if we did, probably would not have many points either unless you assign like hundreds of points to my tickets. Some take me weeks and months to get through.
Why? Because I get assigned all the incredibly cursed tickets, and those get assigned to me for a reason: they’re my kind of specialty and I’m the senior on the team with the skills to tackle them. And my performance reviews still say I exceed expectations. I complete those in record time, comparatively.
I deal with and fix things most people don’t even dare to touch. It’s a well known fact all the way to the CTO and other senior staff of adjacent teams. It’s just, you can’t break down tasks to half day tickets when all you know is there’s a giant rabbit hole and you can’t see how deep it is until you start digging into it. I’m the guy that can just pull out GDB and strace and debug the interpreter that runs the software. My colleagues write standard PHP/NodeJS meanwhile I go browse the PHP and V8 source code to get down deep into why things break, report and fix bugs upstream. NodeJS crashing on a SIGPIPE on a socket that’s already closed? Yep, figured it out down to the exact series of syscalls that led there. Sometimes I have people from teams I never talked to reach out to me with their problems, because when you’re real stuck, you go get Max’s input on it.
Ultimately, you should talk about that with your manager. Is your manager happy with your performance? Does your team seem frustrated with your performance? It’s very possible you get the tougher ones because people know you can handle those. If you’re struggling that badly and somehow you end up with the hard tickets, your manager is dropping the ball hard and not setting you up for success.
and job search is impossible as a person with anxiety and possibly autism?
Don’t give up, job hunting is super fucked up right now with the market flooded with good engineers freshly laid off FAANG and other big companies.
Autism sucks hard at times, but I don’t think I would be where I am without. Use it to your advantage, your abstract computer knowledge can grow much further than most people can possibly care to get into.
Story points are bullshit and I just hope it’s not the sole metric you’re judged on, or at least your team don’t see it that way. If you do, definitely try to steal a bunch of easy tickets to even out the playfield.
How many story points can I complete? I don’t know because that’s a hard no for my team, but if we did, probably would not have many points either unless you assign like hundreds of points to my tickets. Some take me weeks and months to get through.
Why? Because I get assigned all the incredibly cursed tickets, and those get assigned to me for a reason: they’re my kind of specialty and I’m the senior on the team with the skills to tackle them. And my performance reviews still say I exceed expectations. I complete those in record time, comparatively.
I deal with and fix things most people don’t even dare to touch. It’s a well known fact all the way to the CTO and other senior staff of adjacent teams. It’s just, you can’t break down tasks to half day tickets when all you know is there’s a giant rabbit hole and you can’t see how deep it is until you start digging into it. I’m the guy that can just pull out GDB and strace and debug the interpreter that runs the software. My colleagues write standard PHP/NodeJS meanwhile I go browse the PHP and V8 source code to get down deep into why things break, report and fix bugs upstream. NodeJS crashing on a SIGPIPE on a socket that’s already closed? Yep, figured it out down to the exact series of syscalls that led there. Sometimes I have people from teams I never talked to reach out to me with their problems, because when you’re real stuck, you go get Max’s input on it.
Ultimately, you should talk about that with your manager. Is your manager happy with your performance? Does your team seem frustrated with your performance? It’s very possible you get the tougher ones because people know you can handle those. If you’re struggling that badly and somehow you end up with the hard tickets, your manager is dropping the ball hard and not setting you up for success.
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Don’t give up, job hunting is super fucked up right now with the market flooded with good engineers freshly laid off FAANG and other big companies.
Autism sucks hard at times, but I don’t think I would be where I am without. Use it to your advantage, your abstract computer knowledge can grow much further than most people can possibly care to get into.